Notes From The Dark Side

Pressure…

Its a light word,

but a heavy burden on the shoulder,

the more you take, the more it hurts,

pushing you down more and more,

just like the weight of the world,

make your heart beat faster,

make your mind work harder,

stretching every part of your body muscle,

tension in every breath of air you take in,

till you feel hard to breath,

till you feel you are squeezed,

so tight…

and till finally…

you collapse,

as you finally lose you grip,

and everything you held on for so long,

finally crumble on you…

It may appear be lighter than a feather,

but is actually heavier than a stormy weather,

its like a cruel painter,

painting wrinkles on our face,

pouring white paints on our hair,

drawing depression on our expression,

coloring our face with tears

such a negative makeover…

but when you got rid of the pressure,

its like getting a monkey off your back,

and even the smiles come back,

and the breath of tension,

is replaced by the breath of relieve.

Pressure…

it’s such a cold blooded illusion,

playing with our minds,

giving us negative signs,

its such a heartless thief,

stealing our happiness,

taking away our smiles,

its such a cruel murderer,

forcing countless people on the road,

putting their lives to an ending note.

Pressure my friend,

where do you come from?

who is the one who brought you to this world?

My mom? My dad? My teacher? The school exam?

or is it…

just myself?

Well, no matter how bad you are,

I just want to whisper a word of appreciation,

for coming to my live,

no matter how much people hate you,

I just want to say thank you,

for being the constant firepower behind me,

pushing me, forcing me,

giving me the will to fight,

and through all the sufferings,

the only route to survive…

When you get into a person’s mind,

it gets him to lose his mind,

so effortlessly,

in a matter of days,

even the dearest person in this world,

can change to a pure devil,

you bring insanity,

just like a spirit possessing someone,

grabbing his soul,

making him says words they don’t even know,

and you stirs a war that human will never win,

that is a war to still be yourself,

to stay calm and composed,

even under tremendous pressure…

(Salute)

        I just don’t know if I have actually escaped from hell or just miss a hell of chance to enjoy my life…Teaching is finally over, and I do miss the kids, not in terms of teaching them of course, but I really do enjoy the company of the little devils, oh well…angels maybe.

        There are some touching moments, the gifts, the cards, the wishes, makes me wonder what have I done to really deserve that much of appreciation. But OK, at least my heart, my throat, my ears, and my head won’t have to suffer from the pollution of noise any longer. It was a memorable experience, it helps me to grow, and certainly I am tougher in facing challenges now, but we never know what will happen tomorrow…

Here are some music reviews, each of these album got to me for some particular reason:

Artiste : Backstreet Boys

Title     : Never Gone

Reason  : Won it from a contest

Review : I knew its a bit late to review this album since it was out last year, but what to do, the record store just sent it to me recently, and the good thing is the boys are finally back after a long break, but are they going to spring any big surprise this time? erm…I doubt it. There are few decent songs, but most of them are not catchy enough, and yes, a little too dull for me, maybe "Just Want You To Know" is the only track that impressed me, its like, maybe the era of cute boy bands are over now…But credit to them for having the courage to take risk and come back as a group, and another positive thing about this is that it comes together with a VCD, with the making of the video "Incomplete", and another bonus track.

Ratings :  3 out of 5

Artiste : Evanescence

Title    : The Open Door

Reason : Its my favorite band ever!!

Review : I was waiting and waiting, for 3 years or more maybe, its finally here, I could barely believe my eyes…Those who knew me well will know that I go completely nuts over this band, Amy’s vocal, its like angel singing in hell, her poignant piano playing, the band’s chemistry, the ever so spooky yet meaningful lyrics, they are just irresistible…This is an album post Ben Moody era, but I reckon it as a better effort than Fallen, darker, more emotional, and less commercialized..Even the album design is fascinating. I have to say I love all of the songs and listen to it over and over again for almost a week, some really great songs are like their first single "Call Me When You’re Sober", the depressing "Lithium" , Mozart’s great work "Lacrymosa" and the band’s first ever almost contented song "Good Enough" ( also featured in the movie The Chronicles of Narnia). I take this chance to thank Evanescence, coz you brought me to music, give me inspiration to live and rock my life always!! and oh ya…this album debut at top of Billboard chart and never looked back since…wow

Ratings  : 100,0000 out of 5!! (lol)

Artiste  : The Veronicas

Title     : The Secret Life of…the Veronicas

Reason  : Reward for finish teaching

Reviews : I used to give myself some kind of reward after accomplishing something, so this is one of them… Its an album with a very girlish design, this is the first time I saw someone using lipstick as design, but its a really decent album, one of the best I have heard so far…All the 13 tracks are instantly memorable, they hit you once you hear it, doesn’t take long to like the songs… So congratulations for this Aussie twins for this effort, they write and compose songs, and produce great songs like "When it all fall apart", which is a regular at the top 3 of MTV’s Pop Inc chart. Another thing I like about this CD is the song "Mother Mother", originally sang by Tracy Bonham, a big hit in 1996, also sang incredibly by Dilana in Rockstar Supernova’s competition, but this version by them its the best of the lots..Job well done!!

Ratings : 5 out of 5

So thats all for today, and hey…I really do miss the kids!!

It’s a beautiful day,

everything seems going so well,

but just as you are about to crack a smile,

a grin of happiness and joy,

the ever colorful world faded to gray,

in just a matter of seconds…

It’s an unanswered question,

why do happy moments never bother to stay?

Pain, torment, disappointment,

those are common visitors to our mind,

joy, peace, appreciation,

when will they ever knock the door of human’s heart?

endurance, suffering, sacrifice,

it goes on and on,

for months and years,

just for a glimpse of hope,

for a moment of excitement,

for a few seconds of heavenly joy,

is it really worth the exchange?

does success really mean anything?

People

who are walking on the edge of your life,

feeling hopeless no matter what you do,

walking down the street,

listening to evil cackles everywhere,

life surrounded by ghosts and demons,

feel like hell calling, door wide open,

anticipating your arrival,

does this feeling sounds familiar?

What is the meaning of life?

where is the light from above?

Suicide….

death is the way to end all the suffering,

I understand your feeling,

and if there something worth living for…

the word is LOVE

Lots of people attempting suicide everyday,its really sad to see people taking their own life, so I decide to write this, and I believe there is always someone in our life who truly care about us, and they are the reason no one deserve to take their own life, and to allow them to suffer….