Notes From The Dark Side

Finally we have come to the end of a great year filled with great musics and some outstanding singers. So I figured out since others can have Grammy’s, MTV music awards showing appreciation to good music, why don’t I create my own too? Well just based on my personal opinion, these are nominees and winners for my own music awards:

Best Pop Singer/Band:

Nominees: Justin Timberlake, Avril Lavigne, Fergie, Gwen Stefani, Rihanna
Winner: Its a year where pop overshadows over genre, with catchy tunes played everywhere,
I choose her just because she brings a new dimension to pop, and proved to the
world she is more than a pretty girl in Black Eye Peas, so congrats to FERGIE!

Best Rock Singer/Band:
Nominees: Fall Out Boy, Linkin Park, My Chemical Romance, Daughtry, Maroon 5
Winner: Just for one reason, you don’t need to win a voting competition to prove you are the
best, DAUGHTRY is my pick.

Best Country Singer/Band:
Nominees: LeAnn Rimes, Sugarland, Carrie Underwood, Taylor Swift, Rascall Flatts
Winner: Really would love to pick Carrie but this 18 year old girl, virtually unknown in our country just came out and made my jaw drop, TAYLOR SWIFT deserve this one..

Best Newcomer:
Nominees: Sean Kingston, Paramore, Colbie Caillat, Ashley Tisdale, MIKA, Fergie, Kat DeLuna, Nicole Scherzinger, Taylor Swift, Daughtry
Winner: If there is one really shiny diamond among the bunch of gems discovered this year, its MIKA, who defies the odd of looks and stormy past to win the hearts of millions.

Best Male Singer:
Nominees: Akon, James Blunt, Justin Timberlake, Kanye West, MIKA
Winner:Undoubtedly the brightest personality in 2007 music industry, JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE

Best Female Singer:
Nominees: Amy Winehouse, Avril Lavigne, Fergie, Rihanna, Nelly Furtado
Winner: Tough choice but I am going with Nelly Furtado just because of the shocking turnover from the "i m like a bird" image, and she doesn’t do drugs like Amy does..

Best Album:
Nominees: Loose(Nelly Furtado), The Best Damn Thing (Avril Lavigne), The Dutchess(Fergie),
FutureSex/Love Sounds (Justin Timberlake), Life In Cartoon Motion (MIKA)
Winner: A must have for music lovers, its an album full of catchy songs, no songs put in just to fill up empty spaces, nicely produced, just that FutureSex/Love Sounds sounds a little odd to me

My Top 20 Hits of The Year (according to sequence)
1. Bubby– Colbie Caillat
2. Face Down– Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
3. Big Girls Don’t Cry– Fergie
4. Hey There Delilah– Plain White T’s
5. 1973– James Blunt
6. Good Enough– Evanescence
7. Over You– Daughtry
8. CrushCrushCrush– Paramore
9. When You’re Gone– Avril Lavigne
10.Teardrops on My Guitar– Taylor Swift
11.Umbrella– Rihanna
12.The Pretender– Foo Fighters
13.Whine Up– Kat DeLuna
14.Thanks For The Memories– Fall Out Boy
15.Paralyzer– Finger Eleven
16.Potential Breakup Song– Aly & Aj
17.Love Song– Sara Bareilles
18.He Said, She Said– Ashley Tisdale
19.The Way I Am– Ingrid Michaelson
20.The Sweet Escape– Gwen Stefani feat. Akon

So this is the end of my awards, looking forward for a better 2008, so I will sign out here, any comments on my choice please write here k? Thanks…

Dear mom, dad, teachers, my friends, relatives and everyone i know:

By the time you read this letter, I already left this world, arriving at a heaven with peace, happiness,a place full of laughter and free of all suffering. I have no regrets leaving this world, and after reading this letter, all of you will know why. I blame no one, and I mean no one for my sudden departure. If there is anything to blame, it would be myself, and most importantly, fate, my time has come.

I still remember after the exam, I saw everyone rushing out of the exam hall with joy, expecting a great holiday ahead. I try to muster a smile on my face, but what came out from my sweaty, pale face was pure sadness, disappointment, and an inner voice saying "you could have done better". I really envy my friends and wish I can be celebrating just like them. Instead of relief, my heart is filled with guilt, thousands of excuses popping in my mind, thinking of what to say when mom and dad asked how I fare in the exam. I can see a target in front of me, the bulls eye painted by mom and dad, straight A’s . I was given an arrow, I had my shot, and whether I have hit the target, it remains unknown.

Since I was brought to this world, nothing other than the best will do. Instead of kites and marbles, my life is all about pianos, ballets and tuitions. I was told this world is colourful, but what I can see was black and white. I always have daydream how other kid’s life is, but was brought back to reality by nagging of mom. The days waiting for results collection feel like years. I have trouble eating, sleep full of nightmares, but all these anxiety are invisible to mom and dad as you are too busy planning how to celebrate my success, coaching me on what to talk to reporters when I score straight A’s. Countless times I try to convince you not to expect so much, all in vain. So the much dreaded D day got closer and closer, and my night before the collection day was filled by tears and fears.

As I trembled my way for the result slip, and took all the guts to take a glimpse at it, I knew my worst nightmare just came true. 4B’s and 3C’s, I held the result slip, and began the run of my life, without having a clue where I was heading towards. What flashed in my mind was the scolding of my parents, the embarassment they need to face while comparing results with other parents. I am always the "Golden Child" among all relatives, a subject of praise, how would I be able to explain to them? And my friends, everyone will look down on me now, no one will ever play or talk to me anymore, I won’t have any more friends, I am just a useless piece of sh** now.

I ran and ran, and finally I stopped, only to realize I am now standing at the 4th floor of the school building. With all the miseries awaiting me, my future is a total black tunnel. Looking down hopelessly, with thoughts that there is no more meaning for me continue my stay in this world, suddenly I saw a ray of light down, the heaven I long for calling me. Suddenly all fears disappear, all I will take is a jump and all the pain will be gone. But before I leave, goodbye to everyone and goodbye to this world……PEACE

– A letter found behind the exam slip of a UPSR student who committed suicide–

It hits me hard when I read about the news of a standard six student commit suicide after receiving a result which is so-called not up to expectations. Thats what makes me think, makes me go back to my childhood moments and picture what its like to have to go through all she had to go through, and came up with this letter. I hope this letter will give a wake up call to everyone, our society is sick, academical achievements, material achievements are everything that matters, but let me ask you a question, is it worth to sacrifice such an innocent kid for those?